Oh your heart will hurt. It is heaven, and yet it will give you hell. It is day, and yet it will fill you with night. The same heart that was bursting with life, will now feel dead. It will have bled. Just like the sun bleeds into the sky around it when its time comes. When it has to go. When it has to say that word.
I don’t actually know how to say this, because this is always the most difficult part. It can be said in one word, by far the hardest word to say but I feel that it would not be right to part on just one word. Yes, it’s that word. As you may have noticed, it’s been such a long time since I posted, and after the passing of Ramadan I decided it's time for me to go, to concentrate on other things and I'd like to thank you for sharing your company, your hope, your kind words and love. It has been a pleasure.
But before I go, there are some things I want to share with you. Some of the things that you taught me during my stay here. Things that I will always remember.
Be good. No matter how bad it gets, no matter tough or how difficult, remember you are human, and never let go of your humanity. Your humanity, your ability to love, to care, to dare, to hope, to dream, is absolutely fabulous, so use it for the good of humankind. During your darkest most testing hours, please keep the faith, because sometimes you need a little darkness to see the light. Don’t ever give up okay? Keep going, keep believing and maybe one day your belief will turn into reality. Love, and love even more. Fall in love each day, with that which you see, and that which you hear, and that which you taste, and that which you touch, and it may be that every time you do, your heart is broken and you hurt, but don’t you ever stop. Love yourself, and take care of yourself and be good to yourself, you hear? Because your happiness is yours, and only yours so cherish it and nurture it and protect it, because unless you do, no one else will. But most importantly enjoy it. Give yourself a reason to smile. If your heart was ever broken by a person, don’t be afraid to love again, because there will be someone that will love you; for it is not love that was a mistake, but maybe the other person who broke it. As a wise person once said, “You can tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel.” I hope and pray you find your angel. You are amazing, you are beautiful, and don’t let any one ever tell you otherwise. Share your thoughts, your ideas, your hopes and your fears and that way you will find someone who will share the same, who you may be able to help or who may help you. And keep writing, even if you are not happy with it at first, don’t stop because that first page wasn’t so good. Give yourself the best, try and try and try again because you deserve nothing less. Don’t short change yourself in the opportunities you have been blessed with. And have heart, my friend, always. Have hope and faith too. For this journey can be wearisome, and testing, but it can be done. Because in the end, it will be okay. Make it so. But sometimes you’ll feel alone, hold on to your loved ones, those that think of you day and night and those that ask ‘how are you’ and actually mean it. And please don’t hold onto the baggage, because it will weigh you down when you spread your wings to fly. Remember how the butterfly got its wings. Whatever happens, remember one thing, if you forget all else. Remember just who you are for that in itself is extraordinary. You are extraordinary.
If there are any outstanding things that I owe you, promises I have made but not yet been able to fulfil please do let me know. If I have ever in any way, be it through my words, actions, or writing hurt you or made you feel neglected then I sincerely do apologise, and I hope and pray that one day (if not today) you may find it in your heart to forgive me. Let me know if that is ever the case, so that I may apologise and put my heart at rest too. It is my prayer that wherever you are, wherever you go, may you go with hope and courage. For every sorrow, may you be blessed with joy, for every tear may you be showered with thousands of smiles, for every hardship may your faith guide you through, for every lonely moment may you have a caring friend, and for every journey, His angels to guard your way. May you always have a reason to smile.
This post wasn’t really planned, and it is what you may describe as a bit of a mind dump. Excuse any errors etc. But I hope I got my point across. So this is it, a word I rarely use. This is where I say au revoir ma chère.
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But let your heart bleed, why do you think it odd? For is that not what it does? As it bleeds with each and every beat, it carries the necessary nutrients and gases and minerals to the rest of your body. It pumps the concoction of life to the tips of your fingers and toes and eyes and nose and as long as it bleeds, you are alive. So rejoice, and be grateful. You. Are. Alive.
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